Summoning Angels...

I believe that "Angels" can be our associates, as we live our covenants and exercise faith in Jesus Christ, and even when we don't. I believe sometimes these angels are family members that have passed on. I have felt these angels strengthen me through the years, cheer me on, rejoice with me when deliverance through trials comes to fruition, and sorrow with me as trials linger for months, even years. I wish I knew which "angels" were helping me. Sometimes I wish I could see them. For now, I just feel them near, and even "hear" them speak to my mind. The scripture in 2 Nephi 32:3 testifies of this concept "Angels speak by the power of the Holy Ghost..."

The reason I bring this topic up is because my former mother in law sent me an angel bell. I love it! A few days ago when the boys were fighting and I was about to lose it, I picked up the angel bell and walked through our house ringing it. It's as if I was summoning the angels to come and help us, help me. They found it comical, but I found it symbolic. We can ask (summon) for help from "angels". Sometimes angels come in the form of friends, and sometimes they are unseen.

When we lived in Oklahoma many moons ago, I had an angel friend. Our family was going through a tremendous trial, one that you wouldn't wish on your worst enemy. It was excruciatingly painful to my heart, mind, and soul. I didn't think my heart would make it through what was happening. My faith was hanging by a thread. The Lord put an angel friend in my path who rescued me every day from my despair. She will never know how she saved me from my grief. She was one of the Lord's angels sent to be there for me. I have had many experiences like this! More recently was my sister who came to live with me when my marriage was falling apart. She was my angel then! I thank the Lord for his angels to assist us on this mortal journey.

I hope you recognize the heavenly help the Lord sends to you on a daily basis. He loves us so much! He wants to help us on our journey home to HIM! He doesn't want to lose us...so he sends Angels!

                                                                    The Angel Bell

Confessions of a single parent!

I know, I know it's been a while. I also know it's been a while since I have confessed how hard it is being a single parent! Disregard my last post about being able to wait a few more years to remarry. I need back up... NOW! Or at least someone who will protect me from the "grenades" thrown at me daily from my teenagers. I feel like our home has been a battlefield lately and all of us are losing the battle, and leaning to the dark side. Last night when I was "throwing a fit" during my prayer to Heavenly Father, I felt so hopeless and so weary...so, so WEARY!!!!! HE must have given me extra armor through the night because when I woke up this morning I felt soooooooooooo much better. I have been very thankful in my heart all day because I feel HIS strengthening power, once again.

 I have 5 boys and 3 of them are teenagers...need I say more about how difficult this is. I have been AMAZED at the level of difficulty. No wonder people say...Grandchildren are God's gift for not killing your own children. I get it! Now rest assured...my children are not bad. They are good sons of God; however, testosterone has suddenly taken my 3 teenagers hostage and they are trying to learn how to understand all of that...puberty, hormones, boundaries, independence, etc. I could go on and on, but I don't want this post to be all doom and gloom.

I, as the parent, am learning how weak I really am without the Lord's help. I do things wrong daily, but I am doing the best I know HOW...with the circumstances I have been given. I certainly would have shrunk from this responsibility several years ago without HIS sustaining power. I just don't like when I am "left to myself", but maybe I need those times, to acknowledge more fully how much of the load HE really is carrying.

So there you have it, a confession long overdue from this single parent!

Seasons...

Tonight I had my first drive of the year up Provo Canyon. I like to go on Sunday nights in the Spring. It's nice to get away and ponder as I'm driving up the beautiful canyon. I can actually think because no one is in the car with me. I often envision what it would be like to have a significant other driving with me. It would be so nice to just talk, hold hands, and be together. For now though, I go alone which is rejuvenating to my soul. I usually contemplate how blessed I am. Tonight I also thought about how much growth and learning has taken place these past 8 years as a single parent. I wouldn't trade any of this learning for anything. I see things so differently now. I have so much more compassion for myself, my children, and others. I feel the Lord so near, almost daily. He is helping me carry this "load". It is a beautiful thing. Of course, I hope that the time is drawing nigh for this single parenthood season to end. However, if it's a few more years...I am OK with that because that just means more learning, more growth, and more of an abundance of the Holy Ghost and the Savior's Love in my life.

I also thought about the seasons changing and how wonderful it is to have seasons end...especially hard seasons of life. Praise be to God for the seasons as stated in Ecclesiastes. "A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing (I'm still in this season :-]), a time to weep, and a time to laugh;...". He sees the wisdom in all the seasons. He give and He takes, but "He hath made every thing beautiful in His time". I have a beautiful, wonderful life(not a perfect or ideal one and that's ok), and so do YOU! If you look hard enough and are patient you will see the beauty in it!

Doin' something right!

Often times we, as parents, think we can never do anything right with our kids. This is especially true as they hit the teenage years. Well, I got a nice surprise from my 15 year old. I woke up Monday morning and found this taped to the outside of my door.

Must be doing something right! :-) Our children really do care about us even if they don't always show it! We, as parents, are doing the best we can and it is ENOUGH!!!! The End!