I've always referred to the boys' as my Stripling Warriors because I hope that they will be just as brave and strong as the ones mentioned in the Book of Mormon. "And they were all young men, and they were exceedingly valiant for courage, and also for strength and activity; but behold, this was not all- they were men who were true at all times in whatsoever thing they were entrusted" (Alma 53:20). I hope one day when they grow up they will say we did not doubt because our mother knew it. I want to leave a legacy of faith. I don't want my boys' to remember the temporal things I gave them. I only want to be remembered by the spiritual treasures of faith I displayed throughout my life.
Being a single parent is hard, but uniquely awesome too. As a single mother I am able to have matriarchal interviews with my children. I get to take them one by one and talk with them, hear their frustrations, give advice and just listen. Some of these interviews have been special and sacred in that the Lord has shown me through his eyes how wonderful these boys' really are. As a single mother I have been able to go on "dates" with my sons'. This has become a regular tradition over the past year. I once again have one on one time with each boy in a different setting. I rotate boys each month. This month was Jacob's turn. He chose to see Captain America, then we went out to eat Panda Express, and finally we ventured over to the dollar tree for Halloween decorations. I have come to cherish these dates, or outings if you will. I get to see who they really are away from their brothers. We get to talk and share. I believe it makes them feel special and valued. My hope as they get older, is that they will know that I am here for them and that they can talk to me.
There have been other great blessings I've had with this unique temporary calling as a single mother. Most importantly I couldn't do any of it without the companionship of the Holy Ghost, and a loving Savior and Heavenly Father who answer my prayers and hear my pleas. I am a better mother for having to experience single parenthood. The circumstances are not ideal, and some would think unfortunate, but the Lord compensates for the losses we have experienced. He makes our family whole and complete. I am honored to be entrusted with these 5 Stripling Warriors.
Jacob and I before our outing!